Saturday, April 07, 2012
12:26:00 AM
Just In Case
che-che bureche
Tonight is Nov. 13, 2006, 11:31 pm.
Currently working on a documentation, I thought of taking a pause and write this input.
If my calculation is correct, I have roughly 5 1/2 days to go and finally I'll be home - again. This is my most suspenseful week ever. Can't wait.
First of all, this blog, has helped me a lot going through some very not-so-happy moments of my life - helped me to cope up and picked up the pieces of broken me. I only know 5 beings who know me best all these years (in no particular order) - Dah, Anne, Sharon, siempre ung asawa kong kumag and this blog.
I've always kept the soft side of me from my parents. They've always known me as "wala lang". They never knew what's inside my heart towards them. That I am truly sorry for failing them. For not having fulfilled what I've promised to them. That in my heart, they are the best parents one could ever have.
To my brother, who I never had the chance or I did not intend at all to tell him that how I wanted to feel that I needed him to protect me. That no matter what he has done to our family, I care for him and that how I'd wish I can do something for him to forget his past and to lessen all the hurting w/c is holding him back all these time from genuinely showing what he feels towards the people around him.
To Ate Susan and Kuya Lucer, that whatever they are going through right now is as much pain it is to me. I have tried all these years, to give back all the favors they've done to me. I just want them to know that they are as important to me as my parents are.
To *D*A*C*S*, thanks for always believing in me - to the things that I can do. For pushing me and for lifting my spirit always when I am down. Sorry if most part of my life, my choice and direction is a failure.
Sa mga pamankin ko, if only I can, I would take care of you all. I want to be the best Tita. And everytime that I see you smile and happy, I am much happier. I want to see you all to be the best person that you can be.
To my kumag na asawa, thanks for being you. In a lot of times, your ways of how making life simple and its battle surprise me. Thanks for always bringing me smile and showing me how wonderful life can be despite the lack of material rewards. For letting me feel that an unexpected hug, a kiss on the forehead, a resounding laughter, a healthy dinner or lunch, doing chores together is more heart-warming than anything else in this world.
Sa mga anak ko, thanks for letting me feel joy just by looking at you smile. For giving me the reasons why I wake up each day and reason why I want to live more days. Mahal na mahal kayo ni Mama. There is no single time that I forget about you. And I am very sorry, for not being the best Mama that you kids deserve. For not giving you the family and life you might have wanted.
Sa Kanya, I am sorry. For being a failure. For not passing some of the tests He has given me. For being weak. And thank you for giving all the people that I love and care about. I don't know your plans yet. A lot of things can happen if You want. But if ever just fate play tricks on me, please let all these people know what I feel for them. And that if only I knew what would happen, I would choose to be with them on my last day.
I just wish I will not post this input ever.
But just in case.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
7:33:00 AM
A Tonic Reprise - Wolfgang
Dax
I lost my heart today but that's okay
'cause now I am a man who has no heart
I lost my soul today but thats okay
'cause now I am a man who has no soul
And you can't blackened the rain
And you can't stem the tides from shore
And you can't see the sun
Because you've got nothing
And you can't tarnish all the leaves
And you can't paint away the clouds
You'll never hold the stars
Because you've got nothing, nothing at all
I lost my pride today but thats okay
'cause now I am a man who has no pride
And you can't blackened the rain
And you can't stem the tides from shore
And you can't see the sun
Because you've got nothing
And you can't tarnish all the leaves
And you can't paint away the clouds
You'll never hold the stars
Because you've got nothing, nothing at all
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I have nothing.... =(
Labels: Lyrics
Sunday, November 11, 2007
10:21:00 AM
Multi-tasking?
Dax
I was trying to do a comic book on this one. But it doesn't look like one, except for the captioning.For the comic book effect tutorial, go to Photoshoproadmap.
I got this tip from Janep.
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Anyway, this one was taken after I went shopping yesterday. I don't know, maybe I was just bored (as always) that I went out by myself. I usually don't go out... cause I don't have a car yet, and I'm not familiar with the place yet. And I don't like asking my cousin to drive me around. Heck, he can't even drive Grandma to the market.
Anyhow, I got to the shopping center by bus. I looked through the internet for directions, YEY for cyberspace! lol.... I only spent like an hour and 15 minutes to buy stuff. Whew! That's time breaking for me.
Monday, October 08, 2007
9:42:00 AM
N81
Dax
I was just updating my wish list, and thought for a new phone.
I really like the N81... and as I browse I found this link.
It's freaking funny, check it out.
Labels: N81
8:42:00 AM
Foggy Morning
Dax
Good morning guys. It's been centuries since our last post. Guess we've been pretty busy with our own messy lives. lol.
Anyway, I kept on waking up in the middle of the night, but I've missed the sun rise. I went out about 7am and took pictures of this foggy morning. I can't believe I went out just wearing a shirt and a short. It's freezing. I guess I love the cold, it kinda freezes your heart too.
My aunt's house.
In front of their house. I kinda like that house.
The middle of both houses.Labels: Wala Lang
Thursday, March 08, 2007
10:48:00 AM
Pass Muna
Dax
How's everybody?!
Noticed that I'm the only one posting. I think I'll go to a hiatus too.
So long everybody... Hope good things will go on our way.
Congratulations Anne for a new job. (Did you transfer na?)
Congratulations Che for the new baby.
Congratulations Shar on your new degree.
As for me... wala.
It's confirmed.... I'm not going home this year!
Goodbye guys. Godspeed.
PS: maybe I'll start snail mailing again.
Labels: The End
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
4:12:00 PM
Not Ready...
Dax
I dunno what's up with me. I've been singing this...
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should
Labels: lss
12:25:00 PM
Photo Blogs
Dax
I'm really interested in photography. I hope I can learn it. I've been looking up for a nice dSLR, and those are really expensive. Maybe I can save some for it. I think I need to buy a compact digital camera first before I venture to a dslr. SLR are almost the same price as the compact digicams. Kaso I'll be spending on films, developing and all, at lenses pa kung gamay ko na. heheh.
At dahil sa wala pa akong camera, I've been checking up on digital photography tutorials, photoshop, and photoblogs.
Naadik ako sa mga photoblogs, especially yung mga may tips on how to get a nice shot. Sabi naman nila, nasa kukuha ng picture yun at wala sa camera. Minsan nga naiisip ko if naisip na nila ang kalalabasan ng picture before they take the shot.
Eto ang pinaka fave kong picture. I can't copy it here. Just check the link, Julien Roumagnac's PhotoBlog
I'll update some links mamaya.
I also checked the links from Phil. Blog Awards entry from Janep. Halatang wala akong magawa ano? heheh.
I need a job.
Labels: Wala Lang
Sunday, March 04, 2007
9:21:00 PM
All Grown Up
Dax
Heard that Daniel Radcliffe is doing a play and that was it. When I hanged out with my cousins last weekend, she mentioned it. She said some people are reacting to it because he smokes or something, maybe doing a bad image. They still see Harry Potter and not the actor.
So anyway, when I opened my browser, I saw this link about the play. So I read it and even surf some sites, lol. Saw these pictures...
The one I read said that the play was sold out because they kinda circulate this picture of Dan with the horse. (I dunno which one though, there's a lot of pictures of Dan and the horse). lol.There's only one picture of him with the article so I surfed around for reviews and stuff, and I found a lot of pictures of him half naked. Darn, maybe that is why they got mad, Harry Potter's all grown up. Wonder what they'll gonna say when they see Harry Potter kissing Cho Chang on the next movie. That is if they are going to show it, or maybe just a smack? lol.
How about these?
Look at this. He can't even look at her thing. hehe. He was naked at the climax of the play.
Hmmm... is that why some of the people were disappointed of him doing the play? Nyahahaha.
Guess, he can not really outgrow being Harry Potter. What will the children think now?
Anyway, Daniel Radcliffe signed in for the last 2 Harry Potter movies. They'll start shooting for the Half Blood Prince this September.
Kudos to Hairy Harry... err Dan.
Labels: Daniel Radcliffe
Monday, February 26, 2007
12:55:00 PM
Deadly Sin: Envy
Dax
I'm so envious of Mama and Jhe's new gadgets, that I could not resist of buying for my own. Though it is 2nd to what I really want to buy.I got letters from credit companies informing me that they increased my credit limit. (Darn those companies) Tempting me to use my cc's. And yes, they succeeded. lol.
Good thing I still have some self control left. I was tempted to buy the Rebel xti or the d40. I forced myself not to go the camera section or even looked at it. I went around some aisles so I can go to the videogames section where Jhe is.
Yes, I bought him some new games for his PS3. I promised him I'm going to share for the PS3, and since he already got it, he said that I can just buy him some games. Weirdo! thought I can get out of that promise. New games for PS3 is 59.99 usd each. Still expensive!
Anyway, back to my new toy!
I've been surfing around for a 35mm film scanner, reading reviews, specs and all. The ones that are only dedicated to scanning film and slides are very expensive, ranging from 600 and up, and some of them got bad reviews.
When we last went to Best Buy to buy Mama's laptop, I saw these scanners from Canon and Epson. First I thought it was only for photos and then I saw the 35mm drawing on the box. So I made a note for the models and prices so I could look it up on the net.
Both have average reveiw ratings, and good for beginners, and at reasonable price. (Canon is 155 and Epson 105).
Anyway, I was so bored and our internet connection sucks. I can't do anything with my computer, except play with photoshop. (Yes Anne, I did the pictures. I just need to tweak it a bit before I put it on the blog). That's when I asked Jhe to go to Best Buy.
I was opting for the Epson because it was cheaper, but then when I saw Canon, I said 'what the heck'. A few extra bucks for a very nice and high resolution, though it can't scan slides. But it's cool I don't do slides.
So what have I've been doing after? Yes you guessed it.
Been scanning negatives til the wee hours of the morning, lol. I still haven't finished yet.
I have tons of negatives. Good thing is that I already organized my negatives. I purchased some negative holders online and put them on a binder. Bad thing is, I forgot the dates when it was taken. That's why I want to turn them into digital so I can ask family and friends to tell me what the occasion was, and the date. Archiving is a pain in the ***. But a good practice (if you start it early, and not wait for a decade to past). Anyway, we are on the Digital Age. Digicams have exif data, so you don't have to spill your brains out thinking when it was taken, and what setting and scene did you use. You just make sure that you set the date and time right. (Hey Shar, your cam's time is not right. Exif data of the pictures you sent me was around 3 in the morning, heheh).
Yun lang muna. I know "INGGETERA" talaga ako.
"those who commit the sin of Envy desire something that someone else has which they perceive themselves as lacking." - Wikepedia.org
Guilty rin ata ako sa Sloth/Laziness
=(
Labels: Wala Lang
